letter 6

Hey Tan,

First I will answer your question that you asked in your last letter. Yes I still write my name where ever I get space and it has turned into a habit. I dont know when my hands start scribbling my name. This happens whenever I get into the stand-by mode (as all human-machines do I guess). My mind stops working, I just get lost and I start writing my name. I never really thought why I write my name all the time but today I was wondering about it. Is it because somewhere deep down I feel a need to assert myself which you know I dont in real life or is it nothing but a silly habit. I know you have started feeling now that why am I sounding so serious today. I dont know what is wrong with me. I guess the world around with all its noise and bustle is taking its toll on me.

You know Tan, today I was really thinking that why do we always need to bitch about the HST guys in our letters. Why dont we just talk about ourselves. Is it by talking about the HST people that we are trying to hide our own lives from us only. I know they are weird in their own ways, they are funny and we take every opportunity to poke fun at them but I just dont know why I am feeling so weird today. What I cant understand is why people behave in the way they do. Today I was re-reading Cos' letter about Rehan and I just sat wondering that how can a guy be like that. I know that God has created an arena called humanity and created human beings of various mentality and thought process. But what I dont understand, however hard I try to understand, is how can someone hurt the feelings of another person. May be I am thinking in this way because I can never even think of hurting anyone's feelings. You can say I am naive to think about all this and I know your next letter is sure to make fun of me but still you know I just cant stay without sharing my thoughts with you and Cos. I think I have bored you enough for today. Hope to get back to my normal self soon...

Tomorrow I have to go and attend my morning classes...Its better I go off to sleep, otherwise I will again go into my stand-by mode.

With love love and love

Sec